hmmmm

Okay, here's the thing.

There was a LOT of information and a very deep sense of connection for me in the recent bout of meta on women, responsibility, sexism, dual ideas of sexuality...

When I engage with material like this, I tend to want to talk about it. In the past, I've had a number of friends to talk it out with, but I haven't been around lots of them so I've been on my own, trying to work things out. And just so this is clear, I'm a TALKER. I write a fair story, and love to. But when it comes to WRITING fully fleshed out, thoughtful, intelligible ideas, I just *flail* can't seem to get it all down on paper.

And I'm scared as well because I know that my internalized and unrealized sexist views will all be showing like the hem of a slip below a skirt. I really am uncomfortable talking without body language. As I'm typing this out, I can hear myself trying to re-view how I'm communicating. It's a challenge, not a inability.

It's taking me a long time to see that.