hmmmm

[frahulettaes]

Okay, here's the thing.

There was a LOT of information and a very deep sense of connection for me in the recent bout of meta on women, responsibility, sexism, dual ideas of sexuality...

When I engage with material like this, I tend to want to talk about it. In the past, I've had a number of friends to talk it out with, but I haven't been around lots of them so I've been on my own, trying to work things out. And just so this is clear, I'm a TALKER. I write a fair story, and love to. But when it comes to WRITING fully fleshed out, thoughtful, intelligible ideas, I just *flail* can't seem to get it all down on paper.

And I'm scared as well because I know that my internalized and unrealized sexist views will all be showing like the hem of a slip below a skirt. I really am uncomfortable talking without body language. As I'm typing this out, I can hear myself trying to re-view how I'm communicating. It's a challenge, not a inability.

It's taking me a long time to see that.

Comments

[jenlev.livejournal.com]

i'm afraid i don't have very useful words, but i'm thinking of you and sending you big hugs. i think sometimes that tone of voice and the cadence of speaking (along with gesticulations) is a vital part of communication. hard to insert it into typing some days.

[frahulettaes.livejournal.com]

*nods* I'm thinking 'talking' should be called 'performing' because so much goes into what's happening in the moment.

[jenlev.livejournal.com]

definitely so much in the moment. and if one is sincere and transparent about "self" perhaps it's also a form of "expression"?

[nutmeg3.livejournal.com]

I hope you'll type out your thoughts anyway, and just put some kind of explanatory disclaimer at the beginning for anyone who might otherwise misread things.

[frahulettaes.livejournal.com]

I'm thinking about that. The disclaimer. I don't want to appear as so much of a tenderfoot that I can't take a little difference of opinion.
I'll have to think on this.

[(Anonymous)]

I worry about many of the same things, for what it's worth, although I like discussing them online. There's something very useful about being able to link to a news source or essay which throws light on a difficult topic. It means everyone can come to the conversation with a set of shared understandings, and take the debate from there.

[cupidsbow.livejournal.com]

I worry about many of the same things, for what it's worth, although I like discussing them online. There's something very useful about being able to link to a news source or essay which throws light on a difficult topic. It means everyone can come to the conversation with a set of shared understandings, and take the debate from there.

[frahulettaes.livejournal.com]

*nods* Yes. That's seems to be why so many of the essays lately are link heavy which makes for slower, but more thorough reading.
Now that I've started though, I'm beginning to get a much better grip on what I'm thinking.

[frahulettaes.livejournal.com]

Post Script: Thank you for your thoughtful reply.
;)