Supernatural

[frahulettaes]

This will ramble. Patience is very much appreciated.

So. Supernatural. A couple of things(in no particular order): 1. NEW SHINY FANDOM! 2. Awesome sound track. 3. METALLICAR! 4. OMG. Amazing writing. 5. DEAN.

Whew, glad that's over.



This has been an interesting time. I'm really enjoying SPN kinda in my own little box and I'm finding that I really like having the time to take it in at my own pace. So I've given myself permission to obsess as much as I want with two caveats:

1. I won't be going to any actorcons. Don't want to see, meet, or know about them in reality.

2. Not gonna spend my money on tons of stuff I can't afford and don't want to lug around. I'm limiting myself to dvds, a few t-shirts and maybe one or two of the books.

I've never had the freedom to exlore the limits of my obsessive nature. I'm interested to see where this goes now that I'm doing so much better on my own and with all the drugs and therapy. SPN as theraputic tool. BTW: I showed my therapist pix of the boys and he totally loved JP. This made me laugh out loud and love on him totally. And Dean has been an interesting archetype to talk about.

I ordered s1 a week and a half ago and it felt like a lifetime for them to get here! On Tuesday, when I got home at 11:30 PM! there they were in all their shiny, new, package-y glory. So, of course, I had to open them IMMEDIATELY and watch one episode. Hah. By 2:00 a.m. I wasn't even tired but I had to get some sleep so I turned the dvd off. And then laid there for an hour and a half obsessing thinking about Dean's...well...everything and how much I like the tenor, pace and style of the show. How very fun it is. And how it makes me think about stuff. All this squeezed in between: Oooo pretty!, shiny car! Dean's pout of doom, puppy!Sam. Gosh, all the squeeing, I think I woke the neighbors.

And a couple of thoughts about the show in general and some scenes in particular.

First, generally, I'm loving the show on a meta level that I haven't found in any fandom since SG1. I think that's for a couple of reasons. One is that it's a show in which the main characters operate outside the lines. Dean openly and happily breaks the law (Sam too, later on), work to right things by their own sense of morality (most of which I heartily agree with) and work through issues that many of us will never (thank the maker) touch on in our lives. They operate as sort of divine vigilanties but with the might of their brethren/sistren behind them. And I resonate with that partly because I'm so desperately tired of our evil government getting nothing humane done for us and ripping us off at every turn while taking away our civil liberties. And when I feel helpless, I turn to stories and pictures that allow me to tap into the powerful as I see it. And it's oh so very nice to see my own set of morals represented somewhere culturally. That pleases me greatly.

I think I'm also resonating with the concept of hard work over time. The brothers are so very apt and trained for their work and it's because of the effort over time they've invested in it. Granted at first it was against Sam's will, it still paid off handsomely in the perserverance department if nothing else. I've always looked for new and interesting ways to do things. In part, I think this is because as child, no one ever taught me to build skills up slowly. So I taught myself to try every way possible to do something. By reinventing the wheel. Luckily, I have this fucking awesome therapist who helped me see that sometimes the reason everyone else does things that way is because that's how best they work. Go figure. So now I'm looking at effort in a whole new light.

As a recently converted atheist, I have the lovely opportunity of viewing the content of the show completely without fear or trepidation. I say that as my OWN experience, not because I think others with faith should or would view it that way. And I love how creative the show is in that respect. One thing I'm wondering about though is, where are the angels? I mean, if we get devils, demons and ghosts, shouldn't by it's own stricture, we also get angels? Couldn't they summon a holy host? Just out of curiosity. The whole idea of that just makes me sort of sick in my tummy cause I do NOT want to see it turn into highway to heaven. Just idle thoughts.

And as for the scenes. I think it's in Provenance where Sam says to the woman of the week that he doesn't want to get involved with her because he's tired of loosing people. And she says something along the lines of, thats nice but I can really take care of myself. Which sort of made me cheer at first cause, YAY a stronger woman. But then I thought Sam's right. I mean, his heart is BROKEN. And whether she can or cannot take care of herself doesn't mean it's okay to just fall in love and hope it goes well. He wanted to set a boundary to protect himself and yes, it could look like he didn't think much of her, but it could also look like, I'm tired of hurting. Does that make any sense?

It disturbs me how much I like Dean. I mean, what an interesting character. I once said that the thing I found out about Dean is that he wears his balls on his sleeve. Which is another way of saying, he's just so fucking butch. But it's all an act. I think it keeps people at a distance because, wow, talk about full of hurt. And full of horror. What he's seen? One of those events would send me to the nut house. So I think it's like the M.A.S.H effect. You have to laugh because otherwise you die inside and maybe outside. I like how his intensity grew over the seasons and I look forward to what's going to happen with him. Also, CROTCH. *dies* He needs tighter pants. I'm just saying.

And what unholy glee I experience watching them drive around in Metallicar. I spent a period of time making some metallicar shirt designs for cafe press. Maybe I'll even post them.

I should say, I was able to listen to the eps completely, in order from start to finish, commercial free while I did some repetitive stuff at work. It made reading the fic very enjoyable. It also made me glad I came to the fandom a little later cause I missed a lot of the speculation. Again, happy to be in my own little box. Not that I don't like speculation mind you, but I don't like the whole negative circular arguements that sometimes weigh a fandom down.



In conclusion, spn is love.

Two presents for those of you who just came for the gimme's.

Comments

[turtlespeaks.livejournal.com]

Hee, where have you been! SPN was rockin' my world for two years now! :D hee.

I'm glad you are enjoying it though!

[frahulettaes.livejournal.com]

I was lost down a lotrips well. don't know what happened, just, one day I looked up and saw the beauty of the spn.

Are you gonna be okay?

[frahulettaes.livejournal.com]

Hi back atcha. I added you because I like your energy and enthusiasm. I like your writing and I'm interested to see where it will go. and I like your friends. I've not written in this fandom, yet. But my stories are in my fic journal wede_fic.
Anything else you'd like to know?